Hi.

Thoughts from a silent, snowed in corner

Sitting in my corner, watching the snow outside, hearing the silence, I find no one to break the quiet. Different time schedules, things to do, people to meet, work to muddle through. It feels lonely. I feel useless. Maybe because there are things I could be doing, projects I could pick up, exercise to wake me up, planning for my future.

A common feeling returns like it always does, a yearning for the proximity of comrades, the signs of other intelligent life, the laughter that is the mark of our friendships. And yet, the presence of any of it seems to cast a pensive blanket over my mind - for at the end I'm to return to the silence - I can't help but hate that forecast.

And as I look out at the picturesque clumps of water crystals tumbling and floating to the ground, I wonder if maybe that makes it worse - how do you enjoy the snow on your own, when the only feedback is a world that has gone to sleep?

It slows me down, piling on like layers of snow, and it seems like my only outlet to the outside world is through the screen of my laptop. And yet even now, that doesn't seem to help. Nothing seems to fill this void.

So here I still sit, bundled in layers, yet freezing, staring at the white of my screen and the world, waiting for someone - anyone - to call me out from this silence.

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